Tears in the Mix

After Stuart went to heaven, a sweet friend gave me a book called, Tear Soup. I thought about that title a lot today as my tears flowed freely while I was preparing some of Stuart’s favorite Thanksgiving food. I had planned to push through the holidays without thinking too much.

My heart didn’t get the message.

I can hear his voice and feel him walk up behind me and slap me on the backside way too hard (it’s a Sims thing)! I can turn around and see his smile. Goodness – that smile! Those twinkling blue eyes! I miss him so very much!

He loved Thanksgiving and any other reason to get together with family. He loved his family! His loud voice and silly jokes will be resounding in our hearts and minds – but we will be longing for the real thing. Stuart was such a big presence – he commanded a room. There is a void without him here.

I have so much to be thankful for, and I am certainly are blessed. I have a blessed assurance, a certain hope of eternity with Stuart. That’s how I take the next breath!

I have a big beautiful family, and for that, I am thankful. My quiver is full, and my cup is overflowing. God is good all the time, and I will give thanks in all things.

Here are 17 of them:

Griffin
Eveyn
Annalee
Mina
Aidan
Michael
Carson
Emmy
Aniya
Collier
Zeke
Mimi
Cozie
Elle
Anistyn
Eli
And baby Saylor!

That’s all the grands! Of course, the four grown children and their spouses and the two younger ones – Isaiah and Kobi make my heart sing.

Hug your loved ones! Enjoy every single minute with them. Many things can change in a blink of an eye, and your life will become transformed into something you could have never dreamed.

I count it a joy that I will spend time with all of my living children and my grandchildren (holding out hope of seeing Stuart’s girls) during the next few days.

See, I told you God is good!

And he said unto me, “My grace is sufficient for thee…”
2 Corinthians 12:9