Dear Stuart,
Happy birthday in heaven. I can only imagine what the days are like for you there. The sights, the sounds, JESUS!
While I know it doesn’t get any better than that for you, I sure miss having you here with me.
I think about what you’d be doing or saying about the current events. I wish I could talk to you about it. Knowing you, you would have some strong opinions on it all.
I suppose we all do.
Times like this make us wonder about heaven even more than usual. Many are wondering if this is the “end times.” I suspect there are a lot more people doing Bible study right about now.
Searching.
I hope so. I pray we will all seek His face and more people will recognize Him as the King of Kings.
It is my prayer that more people will trust Jesus as their savior and that they will know the hope that keeps us going.
It’s been six years since I’ve been in the same room as you. Six years since I’ve spoken with you, touched you, or laughed with you. Six years ago, I could never have imagined living this long without you in this world.
Yet, here I am.
I’m far from the same person, mom, grandparent, aunt, friend, sister, daughter, or wife that I was then. I don’t think it’s necessarily all bad, just different.
The world was a better place when you were in it. More light. More laughter. More of the good stuff.
The day you were born changed the trajectory of my life. I became a mom. I’ve loved being a mom, so thank you for such a sweet introduction to more life than I could have imagined.
You were more than I could have ever dreamed of. You and your siblings helped mold me into the woman God intended me to be. One day, we will be together again—all of us—right there at the feet of Jesus.
What a day that will be.
I’m not sure what heaven is like. Are you spending lots of time with our loved ones who are there as well? Do you entertain the angels with your quick wit and horrible dance moves? Are they as mesmerized by your bright blue eyes and big shining smile as we’ve always been?
I’m not sure what heaven is like, but I know it’s grand. I know you’d never choose to come back here—even if you could.
We miss you more than you could know. You are securely inside each of us though. I see you in your children, your siblings, and your nieces and nephews. You made your mark on all of us. You’re in our hearts and in our thoughts continuously.
No, my world isn’t the same without you here, but one day, I’ll wake up and be there with you.
We can chat about everything then.
You are only a breath away.
Courtney Lott says
This is beautiful, mom, as usual. Miss him so much. I know these heavenly birthdays are amazing, I am so jealous.
Dawn Phillips says
So beautiful. Sorry you have had to miss and long for your sweet firstborn son for 6 years. When we get to heaven it will only seem like we blinked. Sending prayer and hugs.
Dawn,
Adrian’s momma
Cheryl Jones says
Faith,
I so enjoyed your thoughts. It helps me connect with the loss of my Father. God is so good and faithful. We are blessed to have so many wonderful connections in this world. Can’t wait to meet your son in the next.
Love to you and your family,
Cheryl