and the music played on

I love music – always have.

I love to sing – can’t carry a tune.

I love to dance – no rhythm.

Music has carried me through the ups and downs of life. The highest of the highs. The lowest of the lows. Everything in between.

I turn to my tunes when I need inspiration — when I need a good cry or when I need to get the wiggles out.

When the greatest tragedy happened, and we lost our son, music was there waiting for me. It took a while before I could even listen to anything — although I truly wanted to soothe my soul with familiar melodies. I simply couldn’t. Likewise, I couldn’t read or write.  And I love those things, too.

It took time.

Finally, the music came back into my life.

It happened slowly, one song at the time until I could finally appreciate the beauty in music again.

I have too many playlists to count in iTunes and even more songs that are just floating without a dedicated slot in my dreamy collection.

I have, over the last several months compiled many songs that I listen to when I need to. It’s hard to explain when that is exactly — but there is a feeling deep inside my heart that tugs me toward this playlist. When I feel the pulling, I don’t fight it – I just go!

I won’t share the full list here because it’s much too long. I do want to list a few for now. Then, maybe I can add more in another post. If you want a full list of what I have, let me know via email or comments, and I will try to get it to you.

I hope they resonate with you as they have for me. These songs are not unique to my type of grief – just loss and grief in general.

Fly away – Daniel D

Photograph – Ed Sheeren

Losing you – Randy Newman

Dancing in the sky – Dani and Lizzy

I will wait  – Mumford and Sons

Save a place for me – Matthew West

When I’m gone  – Joey and Rory

Hallelujah – Jeff Buckley

Not right now – Jason Gray

What a day that will be – Bart Millard

A Thousand Years – Christina Perry

Worn – Tenth Avenue North

I’ll fly away – Allison Krauss and Gillian Welch

The hurt and the Healer – Mercy Me

Just be Held – Casting Crowns

When My Heart is Torn Asunder – Paul Wickham

Angel Flying Too Close To The Ground – Beth Rawley

Grace – Kate Havnevik

You’re Not Alone – Owl City

I Won’t let Go – Rascal Flatts

This list is very brief. I will have to add some more in another post. All of these can be found in iTunes or maybe even Spotify, which is free.

Do you have a list like this? Want to share?